Portrait of an Artist
Star Trip

Reflections on José
by Barbara Turner

My story took place a year ago next week. José was trying to clean his room and put things back in order before summer vacation. The school year would end in three days. At the same time, he was supervising students and working against a deadline to complete a large sculpture for a garden area, which Clemente students were to work on that summer. The temperature was close to 90 degrees and there was no air conditioning. It was very hot in school.

At the same time, José was jaundiced and trying to work through the bureaucracy of our new health insurance to find a new primary care physician so he could take tests to determine the cause of this condition. In the midst of all this, I asked him to ride with me to find an electrical store where we could buy a part for a new kiln. Three kilns had been delivered to the Art Department, but they weren't hooked up yet. We needed to buy a part for the engineer to install one of them.

Naturally, José stopped everything and left with me on our hour and a half search for the part, leaving all his incomplete tasks for later—an example of his truly selfless nature. Within a few days he was undergoing twelve hours of surgery.

The next story was told to me by Bobbi Keys, Business Department Chairperson at Clemente. She said a student, Gabriel Maldonado, told her, "You teachers don't know what a good teacher is until you see Mr. Aguilar." Last year, he told Ms. Keys, after looking at Gabriel's grades, José drew a triangle on a piece of paper and pointed to the top. He told Gabriel that the top was Clemente and asked Gabriel, "Where are you and where are you going?" Another example of José's personal approach to teaching is when he played the coach, allowing students to examine situations and think through decisions.

This method extended to his colleagues as well. José was always willing to stop what he was doing to help you do something. He wouldn't do it for you, but he'd show you how—because if he did it for you, you wouldn't learn.

José had an unusual way of thinking and examining in a most creative way that made him a special teacher and friend.

  • Running to José with a computer problem(s)
  • Our hellos and good-byes at the beginning and end of most school days
  • Cleaning out his storage room when he didn't want it cleaned
  • Cleaning off his desk when he didn't want it cleaned
  • Cleaning out the art office storage room, only to find everything I threw out in José's storage room
  • Finding an explicit love letter left by one of his students on the hard drive of a computer in my classroom and sharing it with him—and then erasing it because was X-rated
  • Writing cross-curricular lesson plans with José—he had all the creative ideas; I just corrected his spelling
  • Looking at José's latest test or computer drawing, he was always doing them over with a new approach—he had too many creative ideas to repeat a lesson or test
  • Seeing José in the morning, after he was up with Kathleen half the night helping her with a deadline—he'd never taken a sick day
  • José describing his fall after he got new roller blades for his birthday and forgot where the brake was
  • José inquiring about my weekend or family or listening to me describe a family event—always with interest
  • Telling José the latest school gossip—he might have heard it already, but he'd never tell
  • Listening to José describe his Japan trip—telling me it was his and Kathleen's honeymoon they never took
  • Selling M&Ms to raise money for art supplies and seeing José eating them himself—he'd never bring or eat lunch; the year after we quit selling candy, José lost 10 lbs. by just not eating chocolate
  • Watching José fold paper into origami shapes during faculty meetings—that is, if he didn't have a fine point black pen to sketch with
  • Discussing the latest episode of a TV program: L.A. Law, Northern Exposure, Emergency.

One Memory-Snowball Weekend…

Looking up at the black night with the thousand diamond stars…

It's about relationships and connections…

José Aguilar spoke with an authority in a quiet, gentle way.

His teaching was not vanity, rather he sought to awaken each one's curosity, to stop and let one's self look and tryly see… to hear-really to listen and realize the connections we have…to be awake to the possibilities of the moment and then strive to really make the moment count, and to see ourselves as part of a large and indivisible whole, one important actor in a grand drama.

He was a skilled man who helped us see how to use our skills.

He stressed to us not to burn ourselves out, but to seek and enjoy the pleasures and adventures of our lives, to wonder and be witness to the full possibilities of life.

Thank you, José. You are a blessing for me…for us all.

Chuck Thomason
Teacher at Roberto Clemente
June 13, 1998

June 15, 1998

Dear family of José Aguilar,

There are differences in people. Some are good, some we cannot understand. Why is it a man like José cancels out so soon? He touched so many lives with his quiet ways. He was never greedy. He was always kind. He never put anyone off. Everyone who came into contact with him learned from him.

I can't tell you how wonderful the memorial service was for those in attendance. The setting, the sun, the friends and family, the musicians, the food-most of all, the nephews and nieces who stole the show with all their energy and words of wisdom. I thought I was at a graduation, not a memorial service. José did his work well. These young people are his shining stars and our hope for the future. God bless you all.

Yours truly,

Mickey Stanzler